A new beginning?!

So, the new year's here and there's been pretty much going on those last weeks...

First, I finally found a flat I'll be moving to during the next four weeks - I hope, at least, since I got some funny letter from the company holding the flat demanding some 23.800 Euros of me till Feb., 20th which I was actually supposed to pay as some kind of loan. Hope that's just some automatically sent letter that didn't know I was going to choose that option...
If everything goes well, I'll be living at my own place March, 1st at latest - can hardly wait, though it's also a bit scary... I'll spend the weekends (most at least) at my parent's house still, but living alone will be strange somehow... never did before.

For something else I'm now fully employed at my company and therefor have even more to do than before... good thing about that all - well, first there's the extra money which makes the moving to my new flat possible to begin with, and then there's also the fact that I'm gonna be sent to some event in Paris at the end of February. I've never been to France so I'm really looking forward to going there. I don't know how long I'll be there - maybe it'll just be a day, but it could also be longer than that - I'll see. Oh and I was promised that this won't be the last journey I'll be making this year...

But like always there's also been some rather bad things happening... Firstly, I - yet again - had to realise that there's still much for me to learn concerning, well... "social behaviour" or rather "social understanding". I got the bad tendency to don't care about people at all or, on the other hand, care about them "too much". It's hard to understand that some people prefer some "surface-scratching friendly relationship" to anything more "close" - or at least I can't understand why people hold up such "insignificant" relationships if they don't hope for them to become secondly named ones... I guess it's not their flaw, but mine - I'm socially disturbed, as it seems... not that I didn't expect that so far...

Other thing that happend (or rather will be happening soon) that's not that great is that despite the payment raise because of the new flat I'll be pretty broke those coming months... there's lots of fees to be paid for re-registering my car, my driver's licence, myself and everything else you have to change when moving... and besides that I'll have to pay the rent, my food and stuff and things like inet connection, TV-fees, electricity and so on myself from now on. Living's expensive x_X

Ok... not very poetic post this time but though I'm pretty contemplative at the moment I actually don't feel like putting feelings into fitting words. I feel kinda exhausted and the fact that I angered/hurt/disappointed/whatever one of my friends (one of those I really see like that) and that there's some pretty feelable distance there now doesn't really make that any better... Ever felt stupid cause you'd have sworn on something that just went on proving itself wrong to you but yet you couldn't change your mind cause everything within you insisted you were right despite all signs against it? If you did you'll know what I mean - and that's how I somehow feel at the moment...

Well then, have a nice week/month.

So far...