If someone would ask me if I'd rather know the truth and be hurt by it - even if in an irreparable way - or live on in ignorance, happy, but unknowing, I'd tell him that I'd prefer the truth nevertheless.
I'm sure, this decision has been thought through by thousands of people but I think the answer a person chooses to it - while neither is "better" or "worse" in essence - tells a lot about him- or herself. I also guess, it's those that would answer like me, that will never stop thinking about their lives or the things that surround them, trying to realize the(ir personal) truth, analyzing what's behind their thoughts and deeds as well as those of others.
I wondered today - how people come and go. I met an acquaintance. He broke up with his girl a few months ago after being with her for quite a while. Now they don't talk anymore. The fact as it is - I don't care too much - but the truth to understand behind this ... that's what scares me.
People meet, they live together, share their thoughts and feelings, they get to know everything about each other - say they "love" each other ... and then become strangers. Out of their lives, out of their hearts, out of their minds. Love doesn't just disappear. You might realize that the love you feel for someone isn't the kind of love that makes a partnership, but it doesn't just evaporate. Humans and their choice of words - hot passion with nothing to back it up, empty minds and empty hearts. They speak words they don't even care to understand.
But I can't blame them - all of them do, after all. It's a kind of silent agreement and all of them know the rules. I do, too - but I can't play by them. I don't speak the words without care and if I do, they last. Souls don't change - just perspectives - and if I find I love, I love the person - not just what I see in him right then.
So I wonder what to expect, what to believe - cause after all, I'm the one playing checkers on their board of chess: I seem to be in the right place, but no one understands my moves and I don't get theirs.
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